I know I have a problem. But it's something I was born with. Congenital Shopping Disorder. Go look it up. (No don't, I made it up). It's been that way since I was little bitty bitty. Always loved shopping. Always. Go ahead and ask my mom. She'll confirm it. In fact, one of my earliest memories was saving my money to buy my very own pair of red high heels. Oh, those red high heels.......
I was probably around 7 or so. I saved and saved and SAVED my allowance to buy those shoes. See, they were in the display case of this ladies shoe store that was in the same
Not exactly they, but it was the closest picture I could find. (Word of advice: be careful when you google red satin high heels. Especially if you are on a work computer. Just saying.)
So where was I planning to wear them, you ask? I wasn't. There was no planning. No reasoning or rationalizing. Was it a good investment for a 7-year-old to spend all her hard-earned money - we're talking hours of dishwashing and tablesetting and bedmaking - on a pair of hooker heels, you ask (sorry, Mom, but you know it's true)? Decidedly not. But none of that mattered. All that mattered was I WANTED THOSE RED HIGH HEELS. And my parents were the kind of parents who let us make our own mistakes, within reason. And I'm guessing my mom saw the prostitute shoe purchase made by her second-grader as a Future Teaching Moment. So as it was, I saved up my (here is the worst part...) $15 (yes, fifteen dollars) and I bought those shoes, daggummit. They were a size women's 5, and I wore a 1, but do you think I cared? It was a proud day when I walked out of that store with that box tucked under my arm and I went home to do what? Click clack around the house in my hooker heels playing Barbie, teacher, Princess Leia, who knows.
Fast-forward to eighth grade. Take one short, skinny 13-year-old. Add a terrible - and I mean TERRIBLE - short, mullet haircut (well, it was the eighties, ya'll), a pair of glasses, a faceful of teenage acne, some misdirected eye make-up application, and a mouthful of pre-orthodontically-altered malaligned teeth and, voila, you have Adolescent Me.
Dorky, insecure, Adolescent Me who was desperate to be liked, to fit in, to look like the popular kids. My mom (reluctantly) handed over her credit card so I could get a bathing suit from 5-7-9 while I was at the mall on one of my marathon eight-hour-hang-out-at-the-mall-Saturdays with my friends, since we were too young to drive and too innocent to know we could do anything else. Her two stipulations for the card were: 1) that bathing suit better be a tasteful one-piece, and 2) that bathing suit better be the ONLY purchase made with that credit card.
Wanna guess what happened?
Correct. I got to that mall with my friends, suffered an acute attack of my Congenital Shopping Disorder, and charged every single thing not nailed down. Did I worry about the wrath I would suffer when I got home loaded down with bags of purchases? Um, no. Did it concern me at all that I was blatantly disobeying my mom and violating the tenuous trust she put in me when she (reluctantly!) placed that card in my hands? Sadly, no. Did I know what I was doing was wrong? Yes. But all reason and good judgment were usurped by the image staring back at me from the poorly-lit dressing room mirrors. And the underlying fear of being unpopular and my desperation to be as un-geek-like as I could possibly be.
Because as we all know, cute clothes make everything better.
And... Bam. Another Teaching Moment for Vivi.
Fast forward to the year 2000. I meet Chris Thomas, the most decidedly anti-shopper you'll ever meet. Doesn't like it. Does not get the point. Particularly doesn't understand why anyone, namely me, needs to have more than one pair of black shoes. And when those shoes wear out? You don't buy new ones, you take them in and have them resoled! Resoled. Umm...resoled? What is that? Isn't that when you sell something on consignment? No, you take your shoes to a cobbler. Umm...a cobbler? Isn't that a dessert?
Surely you see the paradox.
It's kind of a bone of contention between us. A tiny one. Not big, like a hambone or anything, but little. Delicate. Petite. Like a fishbone. Which can be really annoying if it gets stuck in your throat.
Sure, I've tried to convince him that inside I'm still the scrawny, pimply, bespectacled 13-year-old that simply has to have the Jimmy-Choo-clutch-J-Brand-skinny-jeans-Vera-Wang-boots to fit in with the popular kids, but he's not buying it. At all. Pun intended.
Therefore, in an effort to maintain the peace, we have a tacit agreement: I limit the symptoms caused by my shopping disorder to sales and consignments and extreme bargains and he, in turn, politely ignores the furtive rustling of bags in the hallway after my "errands" and the surreptitious UPS packages deposited by our front door.
Which brings me to this.
The other day I was stalking on-line sales/business as usual, when I came across this cute little blog written by a girl who is a vegetarian. And since I am always trying to find ways to
Lo and behold, I discover fashion designer resale nirvana! This website sells super ritzy items at super good prices. And all the stuff is authenticated original, so no fakes. AND... best of all, they give you a history of the item, like, these shoes were worn by so-and-so to the 2009 Emmy awards. A marriage of my two
So of course I make haste and sign up on the mailing list with my shoe and dress-size so I can start getting email updates of sales of cool items available in my size. The first email that popped into my inbox this morning? A sale. A ton of designer clothes, shoes, and bags in my size worn by none other than only one of my biggest idols back in the eighties when I was gawky, bespectacled, snaggle-toothed Sarah...
Miss Paula Abdul
Paula Abdul, ya'll! Straight up! Her closet. On sale. To the general public. So essentially you can cyberly go through her closet and look at all her clothes. Isn't that so cool?
And wouldn't my geeky self look so cute cooking spinach-mushroom crepes in that black-button D&G pencil skirt? Or tottering to Aria's soccer games in those sky-high Gucci clogs? Or those Chanel pearls draped around my neck as I vacuum the house?
I know, I know. Yet again, my reality doesn't really match up with my dreams. Or my bank account. And honestly, I'm happy it doesn't. I get a heckuva lot more pleasure out of cooking, vacuuming and cheering my little World Cup champion in my Target jeans and Gap tee-shirts.
But... it's still fun to see what's in Paula's closet!